Touching genitals

My wife is out with Eustace again. May be they are out together three or four times a week and may be once or twice a month she spends the whole weekend with him. Either way, you get the picture.

As a cuckold you will get neglected a great deal. Some guy told me that its like being in a war. There were long periods of inaction and then frantic activity, doing as you’re told, sweating and with the fear of god inside you.

Eustace though has bros with some ability on the old video camera. So there must be a dozen or more good quality films of him seducing and then banging Jennifer with that big cock of his. I’d like to think that the films were made for my benefit but they weren’t. Eustace, Jennifer shows them to other girls being lured into the lifestyle. Jennifer is partly responsible for at least three of her girlfriends going black.

I’m lying on the sofa with all my housework done, supper prepared for when they get back. I’m exhausted by all the chore work. I’m exhausted by looking after their daughter who has now just made her first birthday. But thank god now, grandma, my mother who dotes on the girl, has taken the little one for a few hours to give me a little respite. It’s rough when your mother gives you pitying looks too, and then wonders when Jennifer will be pregnant again?

I put on one of the ‘special’ DVDs. It was from a party last year. I know how it ends, in the bedroom, with Eustace banging his cock into Jennifer and my wife sucking Lucien at the same time to show another girl just how hot the sex gets. Of course the girl, Annette, a pretty bob cut haired married woman in her thirties converted to the dark meat way. She got owned by Lucien and her husband started down the track that I am on. Mike is terrified about Annette becoming pregnant, but that is inevitable. Why panic about what will transpire anyway? The men want their bitches pregnant, they want them pushing buggies with proof of their manhood, the cultural change, smiling, healthy and perfect proofs travelling those sweet little wheels.

The end of that DVD always makes me sweat. But the first bit, the party stage prompts a calmer reflection. Its about the handling of genitals. When your wife gets pregnant, when she has his babies that hugely and publicly symbolises the change, your demise as a proper husband. But what is intimately symbolic and just as humiliating I think, is the handling of genitals.

We were at the party and my job was to keep stocking the drinks table. I was of course there to show deep respect for the black guests. It was a pretty rich interracial mix. Annette was there, with Mike and he seemed intimidated by the preponderance of gym honed big black guys. It wasn’t the sort of environment where you could healthily resist if one of them kissed your wife. Jennifer was wearing a tiny black leather tight fitting dress. She was in Eustace’s arms and they were chatting to Annette with me to hand. The music, some reggae beat was pretty loud, but I still heard Jennifer tell Annette that yes, my cock was caged!

I don’t think that Annette believed her, so Jennifer simply unzipped my trousers and pulled my caged cock out into view. It looked all metal work. In the half light of the living room, with so many people it looked as if I had a scaffold down there and no cock at all! It was humiliating. More humiliating than the leather ‘BITCH’ collar that I wore about my neck to signal my status to guests. Jennifer handles my genitals pretty much that way all of the time. She doesn’t have to ask permission, she just touches them. Sometimes its done to make me ache, but more often than not its done to disparage. She said once, ‘thought I’d check, in case they’d just withered away.’

‘Eustace keeps you in the cage all the time doesn’t he?’ she said to me, illustrating how to hurt a husband. ‘I gave Eustace the key. It’s sexier having your man rule them.’ She added the explanatory remark and Annette looked amazed, intrigued, shocked….something. I was meant to answer and with a smile, as if this was the most boho, the coolest state to live in.

‘All the time’ I confirmed and grinned in what could only have seemed a sickly way.

The video whirrs on and now Jennifer is telling Annette that its ‘norm to handle their tackle when you fancy’. My dick stirs in my cage. I both hate, loathe and need this bit. The blonde woman, a pretty woman with freckles scattered over her nose and cheeks, holds my genitals in the cage, feeling the weight and the size of the thing. She blinks at me.

‘It’s nothing but metal’ she murmurs incredulous.

‘We’re down another cage size,’ Jennifer explains, ‘when a cock never gets used to fuck with, then it shrinks bit by bit.’

That hurt. Jennifer was weighing my balls like a bag of nuts. Once they were plump walnuts, now may be they are hazel nuts. She cannot resist the comparison and quietly, amidst the tight squeeze of chatting guests she gets Eustace’s cock out. Annette stares. The man has a hawser for a dick, heavy, circumcised and near ten inches long. The comparison is appalling and Annette gasps at the dick.

‘They give you babies’ she said as if the phrase explained the world or something. On screen I watch Jennifer put that phallus back inside his pants and then kiss her man on the lips in front of me.

‘I love you’ she told him.

I stroke my cock through the cage. I wish it was a grown up cock, a proper man’s cock. I wish it was big like Eustace’s cock. But it is small, withdrawn and retiring. It is hard to masturbate something so small, and especially through bars. That was the point in the film when Annette was introduced to Lucien. He kissed her immediately and the camcorder panned away to Mike who saw it from the other side of the room. His face looked haunted.

My little dick is throbbing, but I need to make my point. Alphas touch your cock, your little balls, as much as they want. You don’t touch theirs. You come to cock open mouthed, you lick pussy with your hands behind your back. You are the supplicant. It wasn’t the last time that Annette handled my cock in a desultory way. There was another time.